“But that’s how life is. You never know how it’s going to turn out, and you can’t plan for everything. You just have to do your best dealing with things as they come and hope people forgive you when you make a mistake.”

Last week (a day in particular) has been kinda demoralising for me. Reason why I'm only typing this entry now is probably because it's late at night, and I just so happen to be overwhelmed with a sudden influx of midnight thoughts. I don't even know where to begin... but yeah so there was this morning in the previous week where i woke up and checked my email. And found out that my admission applications to the various universities that I applied for have not been successful. Swear to heaven and earth I might have just seriously stoned on the bed for a good 5 minutes, with countless thoughts running through my mind. Repeated thoughts like what the hell am I supposed to do with my life right now? Think that good few minutes made it into my "most helpless moments in 2014" list. I mean, it honestly sucks. Even the tiniest tinge of disappointment that I felt. It sucked. I'm just really super thankful that at times like that, I've my ever so supportive family with me, especially sissy who guided me through all those shit. And momma who would still playfully crack jokes with me "mei mei, you will graduate from university right?" "if not you where got money to take care of mommy when I'm old and useless?" which only resulted in my rolling eyes and her laughing out loud. She even scolded the nus letter "go and die". Where can I purchase a cuter mom? 

So the big question is where do I go from here? I guess this post title says it all.. which leads me to my next point that there are indeed many things in life that are unplanned for. They may or may not always be situations that are in our favour but I think what really matters is how we choose to face these circumstances and not let them bring us down. In all honesty, I kinda saw this one coming —the rejection. But really, having to deal with it when it is actually here right smack in my face is entirely a different thing. I'm pretty sure all, if not most people have been through this phase of their lives at a certain point in time. You've probably gone through failures/rejections/or any sort. Trust me, everyone has. What I want to get across is that in the midst of trying to overcome such hurdles, what's more important is learning to let go of things because ultimately, you'll come to find that it is necessary to let things go, simply for the reason that they are heavy, just like weights tied to our ankles. As cliche as it sounds, I've always believed in the saying that when one door closes, another opens. To the people out there who may or may not be on the same boat as me, I hope you'll learn to not dwell in regrets at that particular closed door, but rather, take a step back and look at the boundless opportunities that could happen if you would make it. 

So I had a talk with some important people in my life after receiving the not-too-welcoming news and I suppose my path's been more or less set. I've looked through some of the available programmes on the SIM global education website and if nothing goes wrong (again), I'm likely to be pursuing a bachelor of science in business and management at the SIM university (in partnership with the university of London) come this end of August. I just earnestly pray that things will be more smooth sailing from here onwards, and that my poor soul would be ready for more 'surprises' along the way.

That aside, I ought to be asleep right now but I decided to not miss out on week 21/52's  fri(up)date so I'm actually doing it here, all the way from Taiwan! On this huge white fluffy bed. Everything about being in Taiwan is great and I don't really want to go home. Appreciating this trip so much more simply because I'm here with the people I love most. Sadly, I'm home-bound after 3 more sleeps so... till then singaBore!